kayla ([info]my_deep_secret) wrote,
2005-07-25 15:03:00
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i feel like shit.

i just suck at living...breathing...everything.

i don't think i have ever regretted anything or anyone this much in my entire life. i should legit be run over by a LLAARRGGEE vehicle.

and i miss the worse things. things i shouldn't miss because they are out of my life for a reason. but all i wanted to do was cry last night. this blows.

and to top it all off...i have back luck with friends. terrible luck. things go down the shitter when they are during the best times. another one of my "bestfriends" has betrayed me. if this happened maybe six months ago before i built up this wall of ZERO TOLERATION for people's bullshit i would tell them it's okay and that i forgive them. but i don't and i am not going to. but whatever...i'm not putting the effort into caring about it because they obviously don't care about me.

so basically...i just need to be careful. as does everyone else. the person you least expect to screw you over...will.

thank you to the few of you who know what true friendship means. i love you and wouldn't be here without you.

IFUCKINGMISSYOU.FUCKFUCKFUCK.

*screams*

ps. i love heather. and my favorite. and manda. don't ask questions. i just do.

bye.

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[info]____indreams

July 25 2005, 19:36:57 UTC 6 years ago

I LOVE YOU. <3

[info]my_deep_secret

July 25 2005, 22:10:44 UTC 6 years ago

*MUAH*

[info]bowlinggirl

July 25 2005, 20:35:44 UTC 6 years ago

You and I need to hang out sometime. for serious.

[info]my_deep_secret

July 25 2005, 22:10:51 UTC 6 years ago

amen to that.

[info]crazynutball

July 25 2005, 21:15:52 UTC 6 years ago

"so basically...i just need to be careful. as does everyone else. the person you least expect to screw you over...will."

so effing true.

i love you and we need to hang out and forget about stupid people together while we lounge in my pool and talk about penis

[info]my_deep_secret

July 25 2005, 22:11:14 UTC 6 years ago

HAHA yes. i am so in.

i LOVE this girl, people. LOVE HER.

[info]_sexybexy

July 26 2005, 02:17:23 UTC 6 years ago

^god ashley can't u just let go of shit, get over yourslef

[info]my_deep_secret

July 26 2005, 03:15:32 UTC 6 years ago

hey guys i don't wanna sound like a bitch but could you take the fight out of my livejournal? i'm not involved and don't want to be and don't know anything about it so i would just appreciate it if nothing would be started on these comments. thank you much

[info]crazynutball

July 26 2005, 03:21:08 UTC 6 years ago

ok i was not referring to becky when i said that. honest.

[info]cheekybaby_06

July 26 2005, 00:15:53 UTC 6 years ago

"i feel like shit."

and you very well should. i have lost all respect for you and i find you unbelievable. you know what you were doing and you should take responsibility for your actions because in the end you have hurt more people than yourself.


ashley.. you have no idea who and what you are backing up.

[info]my_deep_secret

July 26 2005, 03:17:37 UTC 6 years ago

i do take full responsibility for my actions. i have not denied nor attempted to deny what has happened and if anyone has anything to say about it i am open to hear it.

and i know i very well should and so that's why i do. i don't need reminders about how i should feel no matter how bad of a thing i've done.

and ashley actually does know...i've told her.

this reply sounds bitchy but the last thing i need right now are reminders that i am a piece of shit because i am well aware of it and it makes no one feel better by stating that out in the open constantly.

[info]cosmetic_soul

July 26 2005, 04:25:38 UTC 6 years ago

i know the situation and everything, and i have no personal issues with you or anyone involved, but considering kayla is my best friend i feel the need to tell you that your comment was rude and unnecessary and i believe that kayla deserves an apology. im sure you wouldnt do that, but i'm just stating my opinion considering its my friends journal and i have the right to say how i feel about this COMMENT, and not the situation. so please dont tell me i have no right to say this because clearly i do. i have no problem with you, remember that, but i refuse to let you be utterly rude to my best friend just as you are defending your best friend. dont be a hypocrite.

k thanks

[info]cheekybaby_06

July 26 2005, 05:34:11 UTC 6 years ago

you defend your best friend, and i'll defend mine.

[info]ally1018

July 27 2005, 04:13:40 UTC 6 years ago

WHOA.

animosity...

i just like to lighten the mood a tad, loves. :)
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